We are mostly packed. I hope I don't forget anything.
Things have continued to be good between Gabe and I. Every day it feels a little more like the early days of our R and M. Honestly, that scares the bejeezus out of me! I feel far too vulnerable and that makes me want to run and hide. It's a constant fight within myself to stop that.
There are things I really do need to talk with him about. Not TO him but WITH him. I need to understand more about what happened between us and what I did that pushed him out the door and into her arms. I have an idea of a couple of things but I need to understand.
There has to be a safe time to discuss these things openly or else what kind of a R is this. I don't want to hurl blame, I don't want to rehash wrongs, I genuinely have a need to understand his frame of mind at the time. Trust can only be rebuilt fully if he is willing to open up to me and vice versa.
What do you guys think?
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
