I realized that I have been reacting from fear the last couple of days as a result of our convo on Friday. I need to put the fear out of my head and go back to dealing with things with a clear head.

I really noticed this when we had a short telephone call today. There was one logistical item regarding our D tonight that I needed to ask her. It would have either been a long text or a short call, so I went with the short call. I was really fast with the call. Question, OK, bye. Now this might not be a bad way to do it, but I wasn’t relaxed in our discussion like I normally am. I rushed it out of fear that she may bring up something I did not want to face.

If I continue to operate out of fear, I will make mistakes. While I still plan to make the pickup tonight as short as possible, I need to go into it with a clear head and without fear. Be relaxed, confident and polite.

Anyone have a valium handy?

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Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.