I am currently reading DR and trying to think positively. I have been reading lots of articles on-line and the book "Beyond the Affair". He is currently in SA and says ILY when we say goodbye on the phone, but is still going out on Saturday nights to bars & discos, and today he went "site-seeing". He says it was with a client, but how do I know? He has been spending so much time with OWmen in the past, how can I know that he isn't doing the same now?
I know I sound crazy, but this has really been hard for me to understand.
"Everyone" loves him. He plays with the worship band at church when he is in town, and every Sunday people ask where he is and "what a great guy he is"... it kills me not to be able to say - "yeah - a great guy who f**ks other women when he's out-of-town.
I am torn between being really pissed and wanting to repair our R. Sorry for the rambling - I am not talking to my friends or family in case we do reconcile.
