So the weekend came and went. I had several chances to talk to my wife about the status of her relationship with the OM. I was prepared to have the discussion with her, but when the time came I just didn't feel motivated to have the discussion. Its almost like I don't really care any more. I doubt that she would have given me an honest answer anyway so whats the point.
I am here for my kids and for myself. i am no longer here for my wife. Its sad, but with each day that passes, I feel less and less of a need to reconnect with my wife. My focus is on my kids and ensuring that they are ok. My wife and daughter just came back from a trip and my wife told me that my daughter was crying because she missed me so much. My daughter also could not wait to give me a gift that my wife and her bought for me on their trip.
My daughter missing me was the best gift I could have asked for. Prior to the bomb, I don't think my daughter would have been that upset about being away from me. Since the bomb, I have spent more time with her and have been a more caring dad.
Wife is going away in April for 10 days on a trip with her father. I am looking forward to this as it will provide me with an opportunity to be a great dad while my wife is away. My kids previously would have been freaking out about my wife going away and leaving them alone with me. Now they don"t even see it as an issue.
I just need to stay focused on being a better person and spending less time worrying about what my wife is up to. I also went into work today to get caught up on a bunch of work that I have been ignoring because I have been focused on my situation. It was a very productive day and I felt that I accomplished alot work wise. Much more gratifying then wondering what my wife is up to.
