empowerment over, just had H pack his bags

[canadianMrs.]

I'm trying not to think about his behavior. Today actually had an interesting turn of events. After not hearing from H I decided to take the kids to the movies. Of course, right as we are about to go, the phone rings. My d answers it and tells H of the plans (he says he was going to see if he could come over). D then hands the phone to me. H asks if he can meet us and come too. It was the hardest thing I have done in a long time, but I said yes. I had knots in my stomach the whole drive there. It did go better than I thought. I didn't really have to talk/interact with him and the kids were happy to see him.
I'm worried though that he is going to take this as I'm forgiving him, which I am not. It did help me see that I can do this, co-parent and be civil. Its still very hard though...all the thoughts of the lies/deception. Two weeks until my 1st weekend without the kids. I'm going to fill that weekend up so I have something to look forward to.
H has heard from family/close friends and is having to live with the dissapointment from everyone. He told me today that he isn't even sure he wants the OW. I told him he better decide fast because I'm pretty sure OW will think this means they are going to be together.