Scylla thank you so much for the prompt support. I have been following other peoples threads for days absorbing the collective wisdom and sense of family that permeates this board.Yes I have read dune and remember that you are right. I am saturated with fear and only dogs, bees and spouses can smell it. I feel that her impending graduation is being seen as the catylst to a new carefree well funded life to where all her faults and problems (me)are gone at times she seems almost giddy.Although a did catch her the other day with eyes swollen from crying saying "Even though I initiated this it still hurts,I cant imagine how much pain YOU are in." Was invited to go to Maine maple syrup day all over my town with 2 kids herself and SD with boyfriend by W, which I guess comes under baby steps. Believe none of what you hear and half of what you see. I get that ,but, its her actions that have me worried such as the book for the kids,already ordered.
I dont feel as if I have time, and is it possible to effect a change in such a short time. She seems adament and committed.I also feel her tears were more from guilt of breaking up our family than actual sadness from the D she wants. This is going to be tha hardest thing I have ever done.
W is a teacher and social worker and Knows the devastation divorce causes on children but acts as if its nothing Is she thinking clearly. Im confused
