The End is Here!

[Queen_of_Swords]

Dear Bob,
You're doing all the right things, except one from what I can see.
You're letting fear drive you right now.

I don't know if you've ever read "Dune" by Frank Herbert,
in it there is a little self talk about fear the main charater gives himself. In it he describes fear as the little mind killer.

You're thinking you're on a fast track here. It isn't so.
You've got time.
As much as your W is pushing it's still going to take time. Espeically with three kids in the picture.

Breathe. Conciously slow things down. Journal your thoughts, just the act of writing them down slows things down in your head, you won't feel like you're spinning out of control. Take a walk. Do what suits you to get to your relaxed place.
I'm not saying it's easy.