First, big hugs to you. I truly hope that you are doing ok.
When you ask, "where do I go from here," have you asked yourself this? What do you want to see happen? You say that you are having a hard time trusting your H and that is completely understandable. However, it doesn't seem that his travel situation is going to change anytime soon. Therefore, you have a decision to make: either trust him or don't trust him. But you need to make that decision. To leave yourself forever questioning things will make you crazy.
When your husband says that he wants to work on the marriage, has he told you how he wants to do this? Does he want marriage counseling, weekly talks about R, go back to dating you, etc.? What does working on the marriage look like?
Have you read DB or DR?
I hope that you spend more time here. It is a great community which has been an enormous help to me. I'm praying for you.
