empowerment over, just had H pack his bags

[canadianMrs.]

I almost had a moment of weakness tonight and thought of calling H and say he can come home. Not that I really think I could stomach being in the same house, especially since OW is still in picture. But, how is it that I am left to clean up the aftermath. He should be the one to see his children in pain.
People who have found out are calling to offer support help. Everyone has been wonderful, but I am exhausted. My 2 youngest S's will say they are fine, but are emotional over the littlest things. My 5 year old will not leave my side and won't sleep by himself now. My oldest, a D is fine 5 minutes, crying the next 5. I can barely keep myself together. This is my life now?