Hello Sanderika, I logged on this morning hoping to get an update from you and like GAG said I was a little apprehensive about what I was about to read. What a turn up for the books. It seems H was absent because he was guilty about his trip away and uncertain what he was feeling. Clearly it wasn't a dream holiday or he wouldn't have shown such doubts in court.
Good luck in finding the right counsellor. As already said, it has to be the right one! Good luck in tracking him/her down. I'm sure you should do well through DB and GAG's suggestions are good, too.
I like your challenge to let H guide the sessions and for you to sit back a little. That's kinda challenging for a fixer!
Good luck Sanderika and well done on your resilience!
