Take The Long Way Home...

[OnMyWay]

FORB, buddy, I commend you. You have really grown a lot through this whole process. Treat yourself, brother. Do something good for yourself. You deserve it. Perhaps next month, you can go sleep in a hammock on the beach for no other reason than you want to. Add in a couple drinks with umbrellas in them, a band playing on steel drums, and girls in bikinis in the sun (lot's o' girls in bikinis). Sounds nice to me. I'll come meet you.

I dunno, but maybe it's time to put this behind you - for you to grab life by the horns and start living it for yourself. What do you think? Like the movie Shawshank Redemption, "Get busy livin' or get busy dyin'." I hate seeing you beat yourself up over something you can't control, but I certainly do understand. All BITS have to sort through their demons their own way. At least we can come here, dump on each other, and get some badly needed camaraderie from other BITS who are going through the same thing.

Keep up the good fight, FOBD. It will be worth it in the end. Just don't let it control who you are or who you become.

Peace, brother.