I know you are right 9. I have been doing the best I can to stay busy, and that is not a problem anymore. I have more than enough to do, and I am always doing something. In the beginning I couldn't get out of bed or eat. That is not the case anymore. It scares me that I am starting to get comfortable in OUR house by myself. If I am getting comfortable, I can only imagine what she is feeling, but then I might not have any idea. I never thought I would actually be able to live in our house without her, but I don't feel that way any more. PArt of me wants to keep the house with or without her, but I still struggle with all of our memories her. Idk. Just a lot going through my mind these days.

BITS

M:34 W:28
SD:9
D:6 (pr)
M:3 T:6
Separated 1/16/11
ILYBNILWY 10/25/10
PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10

I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...