I'm not sure what I would do. The crazy thing is when the phone rang and I asked her if she wanted me to bring it and the rest of the time I was there, the thought of OM never crossed my mind. Not even to the point that I memorized the number. (I wish I did so I could put my mind at ease). I didn't start freaking out until I was back home lying in bed and it hit me like a ton of bricks.
I thought about it for hours and actually called W this morning trying to talk to her in between dropping my kids off at day care and her making it to work. When I called she hadn't made it yet to drop off kids so I asked her to call me back when she does. She asked me why and I told her that I wanted to ask a question. While I waited, tons of thoughts were going through my head.
Fear of how she would react.
Fear that all that has been built up for the last few weeks would be torn down.
Fear if she said Y or Fear I wouldn't believe her if she said no. So I tried to listen to the advice the is given on here and didn't want to make a decision based on emotion. So before she called me back I sent her a text telling her that I got the question answered and that I hope she has a good day and left it at that.
