I could feel the change in my reactions to my H after I have decided to take a hard line "stander" attitude.

Its like I suddenly realized what it means to not react, to just let go of the situation, to let the Lord do His work on him and on the M.

I still try to control the sitch every now and then, but it no longer is that hard to turn around and let it go, and it no longer hurts as much either.Like last night, when H mentioned that his ex-boss (who is now OW's boss) is throwing a party during one of the convention nights, and he is going, I tried to get him to bring me. He balked, and so I let go and told him that its OK, no problem. He was cheerful and warm to me the rest of he evening.

I want to get to that point where I don't even try to control anymore.


Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18
Bomb: 6/26/10
EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ???
11/5/11 Retrouvaille
Finally piecing....
Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go