I don't know that he wants contact with me or if it's MLC forgetfulneess. It doesn't really matter.
I've got this sense of fatalism going on. I am living as if he's never coming back and I am planning my life and future with the idea that I cannot expect a blessed thing from him.
In a way that is the case, for if he doesn't seek help for himself, there is no hope for our marriage. Unless he doctors his own wounds and chooses his behaviour, it will be more of the same.

I won't be ignored to death.

BITS
Me-51, WAS-52
Kids 2
M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013
Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice.
Love is a action and choice you make, every day.