So I really don’t know what to do next. I thought if I could post to a couple of threads I’d feel better. I don’t think I helped anyone. Doing so usually helps me. Then I’d be able to plan. I need to try something different to shift the dynamic in this sitch.
The baby steps I saw at the beginning of going dark are not continuing. I’d like to have a friendly conv with W, but unless she sees she is getting what she wants, or is expounding upon how great her life is now she doesn’t want to. It is like we are db’ing each other from different sides. I’m trying to salvage, and build and she is trying to rend asunder.
Maybe I should just accept the D as inevitable.
I’d like to believe W is going through these emotions also, but the family I’ve spoken with tells me she just seems unnaturally happy. The self centered fifteen year old was present tonight, manic smile and all. It is so exhausting. I need an escape. Maybe I’ll go to the club in a day or so and shoot some practice rounds. It’ll help me center myself if nothing else. Sorry this is so disjointed.
I’ll setup a coaching session tomorrow. I need advice.
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill
