just when I was up, crashing down again

[canadianMrs.]

Thank you Scylla; you are so sweet. My DB coach has told me the same thing. I'm just trying to figure out what to do next. Go dark??
H did talk to my DB coach in December. He didn't "like her approach". I don't think he liked hearing the truth, or having his future fantasy life dismantled. I love her approach.
I hope my emotional state didn't have us go backward. I did say that I want to believe in us, but for my own self worth, I have to look into how I/the kids would move on without him.
The idea that he married me because of our 1st is crazy. I never pressured him. I was the opposite in fact. I didn't even think we should rush into living together. He was the one who convinced me of our life together.
I really don't think he has a grasp on reality on how our life will be apart. The kids and I will be moving back to our home town (almost 2 hours away, just more support/opportunities for me); with his crazy hours he'll barely see them (and they do adore each other), he will be stuck with our house that we would lose money on right now if we sell, he thinks he and I will stay good friends and we'll still do things as a family (He even talked of a trip to Florida) and he hugely underestimates the amoung of support he would have to pay. I wouldn't take advantage of this, but I have been a stay at home mom for 10 years with 3 young children, he thinks support would be "a couple of hundred a month". Its like he thinks he can have it all; our family and be single...and keep all his money. I don't know if he is fooling himself, or thinks he's fooling me. Part of me hates him for wanting to abandon his children.