You know, for as long as I can remember I have had a wall up around my heart to protect me from getting hurt. To feel "safe" if you will. The past few days I have realized that being safe wasn't helping me, it was hurting me. It may have spared me some pain, but it also blocked out the joy. I pushed my H away so many times out of fear of feeling not worthy and getting hurt, and that was ridiculous! I am worthy of love, and I am worthy of loving. Nothing is more important in this world than love. These walls around me....aren't serving me any purpose except blocking me from enjoying life for what it is supposed to be.
For the first time in my life, I want to open my heart to loving and being loved. I want to believe in love. While I hope it isn't too late for my H and I, if it is, I still want to believe it exists out there somewhere and it's wonderful.
If I have learned anything these past few days, is that love is the greates thing in this world.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
