just when I was up, crashing down again

[Queen_of_Swords]

I'm so sorry you feel this way.
It's not about you though. It really isn't.
You could change everything about yourself and your H would still not be attracted to you.
It's about him.

Love is a choice and a decision you make everyday.

Your H hasn't got that figured out yet, that the very things that attracted him to you are still there, he's chosen to be blind to them, or taken them for granted.

It's not that you're not a good wife, loving and all the wonderful things he first married you for. You're broadcasting....his reciever is broken right now. It can be fixed, but he must do it, you can't do that for him.
MC is a positive aspect in your favour. Perhaps he'd be willing to talk to a DB counselor?

You are a worthy and valuable person within your own right. You have an intrinsic value that NO one can take away.
Don't let his rejection strip that from you.