just when I was up, crashing down again

[canadianMrs.]

The last couple of weeks, while struggling with H's EA (He says it was over months ago, but just told me last month) I was becoming more optimistic. I know if I asked H, he would be negative, but his behavior was changing for the better. Nothing really concrete toward the relationship, but helping withe kids, trying to gain my trust back. He seemed happier too.
Then Monday we went to MC. It's just so hard hearing it over and over again. He still sticks to the idea that he married me because we had a child (even though we dated 10 years before that, and didn't get married for over 2 years after our 1st was born) He says his feeling have been changing for me over the years and now the attraction is gone.

Our MC said that this could be fixed but it will take a lot of time and even she wasn't sure H would put in the time. She does want him to go to IC . Not sure if he'll do that.I have noticed a change in him over the yeas, but I assumed it was a stressful job. 3 kids, life etc. Things have never been perfect, but I find it hard to believe he has been going through the motions for 10 years. Since we came home from MC, D talk is back on the table. I'm an emotional wreak. I'm actually going to see a lwyer on Friday just to make sure I know my rights. I don't think H is being realistic about the finanical aspect of this.
I don't know what to do. I feel so defeated. I'm not perfect but I've tried to be a good wife. The rejection is so hard.