The Lies and Deception Killing Me

[abbey1989]

H and I got up very early this a.m. and went to the gym. After we sat in the sauna and H had me listen to his ipod...he picked out the song "A Song for You" by Leon Russell. Wow! Listen to it sometime.

Some of you might be very proud of me that I have been keeping my hands to myself and not initiating any fooling around. When I talked with the DB coach yesterday she told me to to "drop the rope"....stop steering the R. She talked about being "attractive" in other ways (non-sexual). Things that can draw H back. Her advice to me is to let the "dust settle". Like it!

It made me realize that I have been having a big tug-of-war with myself. I am almost back to where I was two years ago when I just convinced myself that I can't change H's behavior. Need to focus on me and our children.

H drove D17 to train station. She is visiting brother for a few days...will just be the two of us in the house until Sunday. Maybe a picture of things to come in the fall when she leaves for college.

Song for the day "The Story" by Brandi Carlisle