Here is the email I just sent her. She deserves mroe than me at thsi point.
" XXXXX,
I beleive you when you say you are not cheating, I know you are not that kind of person. I do have trust in you, my mental feelings are nto because of you, they are because of me.
Thus I should never push my emotional distress on you when I am down. Last night was a cluster of emotion and honesty.
I see that I will not make you happy and I cannot beg you to stay and put the pressures of keeping the family happy as a unit. You have been doing that YOUR ENTIRE life for everyone. I KNOW THAT.
I will not ask or attempt to force myself upon you any longer. I WILL NOT. I do want to be your best friend but those are HUGE shoes to fill and I know I will probably not get there. However I want to be your friend and right now I am not.
I know I can be that man, but the pressures or you needing to grow without me is too much for me to handle right now. I want you to remain my wife but if you being this unhappy is the result then you deserve more. I love you and I will do my best to not bring up our situation anymore.
You are the most amazing mother, wife and friend anyone could ever ask for, the problem is I never knew what I had until I lost it.
