Hi Sparks - My lease is up at the end of Aug. I have to decide about work and set up daycare in the next 2 weeks so that I can be ready to go back in a month. If I am moving, I will not go back to this job, then quit a few months later. That's a big part of it - that would burn bridges with people I have worked with for 9 years. I do not want to go back to work, I want to be a stay at home mom. smile However, I would consider moving out of state as effectively ending my marriage.

And, based on a few things I talked to the DB coach about, he seemed to think it was a good time for my H to really face us being gone, rather than just thinking this easy routine we are in would be indefinite.

So, I don't want to do this, but I think I have to....I think I have to go back to work part time, remind myself I am lucky to have a job, and miss some really special time with my kids. The alternatives are to leave and really make this hard on everyone (myself included, since I leave a lot of dear friends and independence to be closer to family); stay and take a (probably stupid) risk of being jobless/relying on a man who let me down to fully support 2 households in a very expensive area; stay and buy some time by sacrificing some of my time with the kids. Making him realize we could be gone, but not pressuring him/beating on him/etc seems to make sense.


Faith is, at one and the same time, absolutely necessary and altogether impossible.
--Stanislaw Lem