Atacrossroads, I am really sorry you find yourself in this situation. Keep reading and posting. As dbmod noted, everyone starts on full moderation, after a bit your posts will start to show up as soon as you post them.

I know this is a very difficult time. But use the information in the book and on this site. It will help YOU regardless. It can also help turn your M around.

I wish there was some magic to all of this but unfortunately there is not. It is a tough road and no one can predict how things ultimately turn out. BUT, if you follow the advice here. You will start feeling better. That I know.

BITS

Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.