Punkin, Planting is soothing and helps to alleviate some of the stressors in your life. I'm sure that your yard is beautiful and I imagine your front porch area looks beautiful.
I'm going to make one suggestion...the letter that you are composing...don't give it to him just yet. Hold if for a while, as he will take it the wrong way. He needs to lose some of the euphoria that he will have once everything is settled in order to get the true meaning of what you are saying. Just my 2 cents.
Hang in there!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
