I do know how you are feeling, although I no longer have kids at home. Several people have mentioned detaching to you, and that will make more and more sense as time goes by. Separating your being from the being that the two of you created as a whole. Not an easy task, but definitely survival mode.
The anger is quite natural, as well. And grief. The entire gamut of emotions.
Going dark is the best advice I know, but much easier said than done when the H is still around so much. In your case, try dim. Check out Cadet's suggested readings for explaination. If you appear to be not so interested in his life and what he is doing, he'll begin to wonder what you are interested in. It's not a game; it's a means by which to detach yourself.
Glad to hear you are GAL'ng and taking care of yourself. At this point, taking care of yourself and your children is the best you can do.
Come here to rant anytime. Someone will be here to 'catch it'.
ME: 54 Him: 51 M: 20 years T: 21 years OW/New wife: 36 Sons & Daughters: 7 (ages 24-36) Bomb: March 4, 2010 He Filed: April 28, 2010 I Contested: May 1, 2010 Standing Down: 11/24/10 Divorced : 05/04/2011
