WAW tearing up our family part II

[ironMan]

Hey, FOBD .... Thanks for checking on me. It means more to me than I could ever express

.... I haven't done the letter thing .. but I think its a good idea. I have mostly just been

1) deciding that it was ok to be angry ... but .... make sure I don't let it sink me

2) trying to understand her side of it. My gut tells me, that she cheated (or kept wanting to) and was feeling bad about it. But, even if I'm wrong ... she doesn't feel good about leaving. IF she did, she would've been gone long ago. So, I'm mad at her. But this isn't easy for her either.

3) Aknowledging ... that yeah .... maybe this behavior is telling me that she's not somebody I can/want to build a life with in the future. But me being mad at her won't change that. If my D has to grow up in 2 houses ... I guess she does. It wasn't my decision ... but it isn't the end of the world.

So, just processing it I guess. Figuring out where the anger is coming from and just like pain .....what it can tell me about what's going on inside.