Need help ASAP- panic attacks

[angel61]

I did ask the retrouvaille coordinator. My H says at this point that they are just friends ...that all they talk about is work/scientific projects. He said he is still bound by my wishes that there cannot be an affair within our marriage, but he cannot stand the "no contact".

That is why he says he wants us to legally separate, but again, I think he is conflicted on whether he really wants it or not. I see him as not wanting the decision to come from him, but from me. When I actually take him up on it and tell him "lets go to the lawyer today (I have done that 2x actually) he stalls.

Maybe we are actually in a good DB situation, come to think of it. I might still have the chance to turn this around if I play it right.