Busting:

Just caught up. I'm not very active on the weekends.

I have to tell you that I came across a reaffirmation of sorts in a book that I am re-reading again. This may help you in understanding where Beckie's thoughts may be generating from. It indicated that sometimes people need to D and live seperate lives for a while in order for them to heal and possibly see what they have lost. A seperation for some is not enough distance. My C told me this is because the WAS still feels to immeshed (spelling?).

It sounds like she is starting to realize that she does have some accountability in this whole mess just like you do. She is at least willing to listen to what the DB Coach says which is a good thing. I'm sure she is scared to possibly face her own demons. Us LBS's know how hard that is but once you get over the hurdle and you realize the heaviness dissipates it's the most amazing start of the journey at least IMHO.

And remember...you have already started the journey and it doesn't matter how or why you did. The most important thing is you did it for YOU! Keep that going so that you can continue to represent and present yourself better every day.

Please let us know how things went!


BITS

M: 48, H: 42 Kids: 0
T: 20 yrs M: 16 yrs. (H's 1st, my 2nd)
WAS/MLC: 12/7/09-I'm not the wife HE deserved
Came home per L: 12/26/09, Left again: 2/6/10
Served: 10/21/10, D FINAL: 6/15/11