Piecing is almost harder than before #2...

[Harrier]

Bolt, I get the feeling like you are falling in love again. It's strange and wonderful at the same time, I bet JTB could shed some light on this.

So no one was around to answer my question on how to proceed. I was forced to fly blind and I took a huge risk.

So on Friday, we carpooled. We were driving to get a pizza before heading home. The whole ML question had been on my mind for like a week. I had practice what I was going to say over and over. I still didn't know if it was wise to bring it up. I mean my W was pretty clear about that kinda stuff - let her bring it up and the more I talked about it the less inclined she was to move forwarded on it.

So I'm kinda quiet and my W ask if I'm doing okay. I say "well, there is one thing, but I don't know if I want to talk about it." My W is no fool, she says "Clearly you want to talk about or else you wouldn't have said anything." she also said she wouldn't get mad and listen to what I had to say.

Now, I have a whole speech in my head. After hemming and hawing, I say "I kinda wanted to see where you were about starting to have sex again."
I then say, "If your answer is 'I'm not ready yet', then I understand and I will leave it at that." I begin to say something else and she stops me.
"I suggest you stop right there, because you could only hurt your chances."

It was a risk and I'm hesitant to say what she said. I will say that we talked later on Saturday and my wife said that she thinks our relationship is at a point where I can bring things to her that I couldn't before. Like, if I felt that she wasn't spending enough time with me and it was a legit comlaint, the I could say "Hey this was botherng me."

This was kind of an issue in the past because basically my W didn't want to hear it because of all our issues. I feel real strong about our direction.

A lot of kisses, hugs and ILYs over the weekend, but also a lot of giving each other our own space and feeling secure enough to do so. That to me is equally important. I really feel we are building a good foundation.