My heart goes out to you too. How have you been holding up since the papers have been filed? Is your W still at home even after the papers are filed?
My H is adamant on not leaving the house, so I know if and when it gets to that step that we will still be living together. Despite trying to move on and be happy with my kids, it is pure torture to have someone treating me with such cruelty.
But I agree with you that I wouldn't want him back the way he is. I am just trying to set the best example I can by doing the next right thing while he continues to self-destruct. He is a very prideful and stubborn person so I could see him going through with something even if he did have doubts just to prove he doesn't (if that makes sense).
