Rollercoaster of love

[LearningPatience]

It's been a while since I've posted or responded to anyone. If I had one word to describe the last week, it would be overwhelming.

The main reason I couldn't post was due to my mother's health. M went to hospital a week and a half ago. Got call on Monday saying she was in really bad shape. Wasn't sure she'd be alive when I got there (4 hour drive). She was, but delirious, didn't recognize me, etc. She's better now, but going into LTC today. I've got power of attorney for her, so I've been settling things the past few days.

Along with M health issues, I'm still dealing with S14 who has anxiety and other issues. Met with psychiatrist and his first thought was Asperger's. I don't think so, but I can see where he got the idea.

And of course, the piece de resistance, the ongoing S from my W. We've both gone dim on each other. I haven't seen her in two weeks. We've texted and emailed a little, some practical things (like M sitch) and a few random convos. I've pretty much let her initiate all contact.

Thankfully, I've been able to see positive things as they happen. I ran 6 miles Saturday morning. S12 was on the front page of our newspaper yesterday and I was very proud of him! Sent a link to the online version to friends and family. Of course, the only one of them not to respond in congratulations was W.

I broke down and cried for the first time in ages on Friday. I've been an emotional wreck. I've noticed I can keep it under control if I keep myself busy, but that only seems to go so far.