Another New Day

[islander]

Analyzing against my good judgement, and I know it means NOTHING:

I was strong today thanks to grr, Country, and 9! Thank you.

I did not contact W at all, but she contacted me.

w: r u going w my parents tomorrow night

m: ??? what is tomorrow night

W: they are going to a concert at church

m: Why do you want to know if I am going

w: just wondering

m: idk. I haven't been invited

w: ok- u working tomorrow

m: no

w: can i ask you a question about the tv and wii bc D and I can't watch or play it right.

I did not respond to that, and she has not contacted me again. I am alright with that too..

I did not respond to her initial tm right away.

Why is she contacting me about these things. Me analyzing says she is not as happy as she would like to be, and she misses me. It has been 6 days since we had ANY contact, the longest ever.

I feel like her 'boyfriend' should fix the tv for her, I wanted to tell her that (but didn't) and I could not tell her how to do it over the phone anyway. It has a lot of connections with the stereo and everything.

She asked me that same question 6 weeks ago. If OM is that great of a guy, why hasn't he done it. He lived there for 4 weeks.

I really think she is questioning what she is doing again. The tm tonight make me believe that. But she has to do more than question or talk from now on. I will only believe what I can see, and nothing that I hear.

Un-Analyzing (I just made that up like gwb), her tm meant nothing, OM can't fix anything bc he is not all there, she just wants her tv and wii fixed.

I am committed to my M in these dark days, and have no expectations (but I think about what it would be like).