I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

Did a dumb thing. D12 didn't log out of her FaceBook page ... so for the first time in a long time I checked out STBXW's page.

Nothing in the posts of interest -- other than the Feb. 2 post she put up about some nice person shoveling her driveway. She's so grateful.

I did it. I'd been listening to a sermon from church on being thankful and after shoveling mine -- we had a 14 inch blizzard that night -- I wandered down and did hers. We live two blocks from each other.

Then I clicked on photos. And, like the moth to the flame, I saw she posted 46 pictures from her trip to Sturgis last summer.

I went through them. About 10 of them had the OM -- I keep thinking he might not be, but he keeps popping up.

Funny, none of them had her best friend in them, the one she supposedly rode down with. I find that really curious. You'd think she'd be in one of them.

My guess -- the best friend thing was a ruse for me and the girls.

I know it doesn't matter. I'm sitting her very upset and I shouldn't be. I had a two-week fling in December.

Funny thing, the sermon today was on being grateful and I am trying to focus on the positives. But for some reason I wanted to feel sorry for myself this weekend. Perhaps it was too much time with STBXW on Friday.

I think I need to back off that again. Just get the D done.