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BTW, Country , there were no NERDS this night, I was so cool over here.

Not one hint of relationship talk. She even mentioned to me that it was soooo nice to see our oldest son laughing for a change.

Did she see a family that is worth saving tonight? Who knows, only she can answer that.

Her sister invited me to dinner with all of them tonight. I dont know when to start pulling back from all this.

Its got to be soon but again, she is mourning the loss of her mother which puts this in a precarious situation.

True gritter and Sandi. I was goingt start my previous post saying that I slipped again and that I started relationship talk and yada yada, as my natural tendencies are for practical jokes but I couldnt do it.

Is it possible that in my 47th year I am growing up.

Nahhh,

I would like to start pulling away but then she gets support from OM only right.

My anxiety wasnt too bad last night.

It must have been wierd for her to be in the house she designed and know that it is no longer hers.

She asked me if it was OK that she was there despite the invite.
She had this look of concern on her face that affected me though, like I feel really sorry for her.

Hard to watch someone you love in pain, but I have to keep reminding myself she caused much of this.

I KNOW i will be strong, I feel it. I wont slip to R talk again anytime soon and only if she totally initiates it.

Im talking months down the road if ever.

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