Another New Day

[islander]

I am doing better but not well. I am just trying to keep busy when I am not working. As far as a plan, that is all I have right now. I guess I am going to start imagining a new life for myself, with somebody else. I am not going to pursue it farther than that. It is just a way for me to cope. I am a married man till the end.

[ninelives]

Sorry to hear that you are down today Islander. I know how tough it is and sometimes you just want to shake them and say , do you really think you are going to be happy in a new life with somebody that doesnt really know you?

But they have to find out the hard way right.

Be strong dude. We are all in your corner.

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[islander]

I was actually. I made a joke the other day about shaking some sense into her! A sad state for a person to be in, both of us I guess

[islander]

Another day down and haven't talked to or heard from My W. This is very hard, but I have to remember I really don't have any other choice unless I quit, and that is not an option.

I am lost right now. I tell people all of the time that I am going to be ok, but I find myself questioning whether of not that is true. At the end of the day, I believe it is. I just have to redefine my life and what ok means.

Like S_C said, things seem to be going fine until they show interest, and then it is all downhill from there. A cruel game if you ask me.

I know this, one day in the not so distant future, we will all be able to hold our heads high and walk with dignity, honor, and integrity, bc we know we did everything we could to save our marriages, regardless if we are successful

[♪CS♪]

How many days of NC has it been?

Like you said, keep your head high.

[islander]

Today will be 5

[ninelives]

I know its tough Islander. Its like you dont want contact in your head but that damn heart seems to take control.

Everytime the phone rings or there is a text, the head is saying please dont let it be her but you know you want it to be her in any form you can.

This will subside the longer the NC goes on. So it is a very painful thing for now but with that pain, you will get to the other side.

It is a cruel game to be sure but its one that you MUST get good at Islander if you are to get to the other side in tact.

My thoughts are with you often man.

Keep it up and DONT you slide looking for excuses to contact her.

9

[islander]

You are right on again 9. Every time I get a text I think it is my W, hope it is not and then hope it is.

We will have to have contact sooner or later, atleast to do taxes or bills. I am thinking about doing everything with the taxes that I can do without her and see what I come up with.

[islander]

I find myself wondering if there was something that I could have done when I first found out about the A that would have changed my current sitch for the better, like going dark around that time. I almost feel that I waited too long. I guess it doesn't matter, that is histor now, and I need to deal with what I've got in front of me.

[♪CS♪]

Today will be 5

I would see this out at least a full week, maybe two. But after sometime don't be afraid to try something else if nothing changes. Remember, do what works.