PINCH ME of HIT ME with a 2x4

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Working like crap. No excuses. Dont understand myself at all. Thought I was better than that. Worn out path to say the least.
Im empty right now Sandi. I really am.

Jack; your insight is well taken. Things can change.

Can you please advise me one more time as to what my next step should be. She wants me around. We were having a really good time today and then the conversation turned to our settlement and she told me she got her money but was complaining about her job and loss of it. I listened and sympathized and supported her.

Then she was saying that I will be fine finacially with the settlement as i keep my pension and that I could sell the house.

IT made me feel really uncomfortable so i asked her to change the subject. But she insisted on staying on it. I asked her again to talk about something else but she was on it.

I said, ok , well I need to go. I have things to do at home. She back tracked and apologized but I really had to go. I was having an anxiety attack and didnt want to make the situation worse.

I apologized for leaving and she was cool with it.

Another day tomorrow. Please , no more mistakes.

I never had anxiety before in my whole life. Not attacks anyway.

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