A prayer list is a list of people that I pray for everyday. I really don't have a set time to pray, I just do it whenever I have a few minutes...Like if I am driving from point A to B. I haven't turned my radio on in a month! It's also a great time to be silent and let God speak to you. Since I've started walking to lose weight, I pray during my walks. No need for an IPOD when you have God to talk to!
When I pray, I just tell God what I feel in my heart. I lift up my concerns to him. One of my motto's is "Let Go and Let God". It reminds me that I don't have to face anything alone and that God will always provide. When you are hurting, lift that up to God and he will give you peace.
Nothing is too personal for me on this board. My goal is to gain skills that will enable me to be a better person (for me) and am willing to do anything to get there. My other goal is to be a positive influence on others and to encourage and support. You can ask me anything and I will answer.
Brian...re-read what you justed posted to Busting....
You are on your way more than you think! NICE job!
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M: 48, H: 42 Kids: 0 T: 20 yrs M: 16 yrs. (H's 1st, my 2nd) WAS/MLC: 12/7/09-I'm not the wife HE deserved Came home per L: 12/26/09, Left again: 2/6/10 Served: 10/21/10, D FINAL: 6/15/11
Just making a quick note here to remind myself that my redemption for 30 years of mistakes and poor decisions can now be found in staying on course everyday towards achieving my 60 day goal.
Doing this do-able thing I have now set out to do will give me back all my confidence and more. It will restore my power, my swagger, my mojo, my juice, my thirst, my joy...It will give me the freedom of full expression, self-respect, validation... and the best chance in the world of healing myself, being truly, deeply, madly, profoundly, absolutely congruently and consistently balls to bone happy with myself...It will finally give me the time and space and grace and freedom to start building awesome new relationships with everyone I love...
And as a side benefit, it will undoubtedly make me the brightest and most attractive flame in the eyes of my True Love.
Just putting it out there as a reminder to me and God.
60 days.
Actually, it's 67 days until May 25th when I stand triumphant on the top of my Mount Everest. So I've got one extra week of preparation before my 60 day blitz.
Hey! Ho! Let's go!!!
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
WAW is waiting for the divorce papers I have signed. I have not yet sent them but told her that I would. I have been debating whether or not to include a letter when I mail the papers to her on tuesday. She is scheduled for a DB session by herself on monday.
She hasn't heard from me in a couple of days and just sent me this message:
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Hey Michael how are you? Are you mad at me? Or just dealing with us in your way? Hope your ok? Love Beckie
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Not sure what to make of it or how I might respond. at first I was thinking of admitting I am angry because that is how I am truly feeling and it's a feeling we rarely show each other...
But I'm not really sure what to say.
Think I'll just try sitting with it for awhile, but if anyone has any insight or suggestions I'll wash your car for you!
Mike
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
leave out the disappointed part. She already knows that. But, who am I to give advice? I can't seem to get this right. Small daily goal reached: No phone call or text.
me:51 H: 48 No kids together M:14 years seperated:Ask him to GET OUT 3/21/11 Piecing 09/14
I'm thinking how Mach asked me the other day something about what do I need to say vs. what do i want to say.
My need is to to be the best husband I can be.
Right now it appears my wife is feeling so uncertain about her life she is needed to walk away on our life in hope of finding some kind of peace or certainty within herself.
I feel I need to tell her that right now I am here for her, though we can't really help each other until we re-establish trust and show some kind of desire and ability to work together.
I feel that no matter where it leads it is a healthy step she is taking by talking to our counselor, and I would rather not risk either of us saying or doing anything to upset each other before she has had that call.
What do you think?
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
