However, I want more than knowing he is with her the day after he's been with me.
A new relationship should start fresh. A new relationship between us would have enough tensions and issues based on past history which would need gentle handling. My issues with ow will cause further tensions between H and I which will doom our progress.
I feel my decision means the end of any possibility between H and I and although I feel sorry about that I know I deserve more than being the ow.
