Standing up to the punches

[Redo]

Just venting....

So i find out that one of my wife's cousins is getting married. I was close to that guy. He used to ask me lot of questions on computers and i would help him out. It was good hanging out with my wife's cousins as i did not have that many guy relations of my age on my side of the family.

Now there's just 0 contact. His dad calls me up for like couple of minutes and tells me about the marriage. When i visited my wife last week, there's no talk about anything. It is like she does not even give a sh*t. I developed high BP in 2009 after our issues began. She used to ask me about how i was doing. Nothing...now. I just visited FB and saw how all her cousins are my friends. I had half mind to take them out. But i did not. I think all negative emotions just came running in.

The problem is that i did not only lose my wife, i lost my daughter and lot of the friendships i developed with her family. I dont know what is worse. Her family talking to me and her not talking to me Or her whole family going dark with me.

Sometimes i feel like saying 'scr*w this whole thing. Why am i fighting like this? For whom? No one on her side gives a sh*t. My wife does not seem to. Why am i fighting this battle...

sorry for venting. This was building up for a while now....