New and saying hello

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Hi there,

I have been lurking on this site for a little bit now trying to muster up the courage to post.
I've read a lot of enteries by fellow DBers and I have found comfort in your support for one another.

My H & I have been separated for a month now, and to say it has been h*ll is an understatement.
I can't eat, I can't sleep, and sometimes it takes all my strength to get out of bed.

While I know that all the problems are not my fault, a huge part of it is and I am working on making some serious life changes. Changes I should have made many years ago but that is neither here nor there.

After reading Michele's book, I realize I have been doing many things wrong in trying to win my H back. Crying, begging, pleading, etc.
I can't help it, it's my natural reaction.

The bottom line is, I don't know what to do or how to cope.
My H isn't sure if he wants to continue with our M or not, and I am very scared it could be the end of us.


Any advice or support you have to offer is greatly appreciated.