Oh, it's definitely done--I just can't stand how it's turned out and while wishing him happiness sounds good in theory, I am in way too much personal pain to actually feel that way. It's like the nightmare that I never wake up from. Just this morning I learned that he and his gf are heading to Rome for a week!
Mostly, I hate that he instantly created a whole new family with MY kids.
I am still in shock that my H--who was such a good guy with two capital G's, and who said he wasn't having an A, that he had to leave to be "alone" and to get "space" actually turned out to be a total MLC cliche. And he apparently feels no guilt whatsoever. It's just astonishing to me--and, again, hitting me anew now that my own post-M relationship is over.
Initially, it was kind of fun to be single again, to do online dating, to look forward to a new life. But now, 3 years later, I'm just tired and discouraged and completely pessimistic about my romantic future.
I know, I know--GAL, all that. I DO THAT and I keep doing it and I know I can't control what my XH does, but the anger and pain I feel is just unbearable.
Me/X-H: 47/48 T 19 yrs M 16 years D14 D10 ILYBINILWY: 10/07 H moved out 6/08
