Let Us Be Outstanding Together. Part 3

[zengypsy]

Busting...

I'm sorry to hear that you are in a bad way. It's expected tho so don't beat yourself up and think if only...woulda, coulda, shoulda.

Brian is SO right. You can continue to DB even if you get the D. What can you do for YOU right now that will NOT be more of the same? You have done alot of work to get yourself healthier; mentally, physically. A D is just a stupid piece of paper. Are you going to let it define who Busting Mode is and has become? I know for me, I've worked too hard to let it define me and my STXH is the one who is missing out. If we had any contact other than financial stuff, he would be like who is this person. Having said that, I still try to let my actions shine thru in emails since that's how he chooses to communivate with me. I am always suggesting and/or recommending things instead of being the control freak I was. I ask for HIS recommnedations or suggesstions now too. Not sure if he's noticing, but it feels good to ME that I see I respond in a different way and it doesn't feel forced.

You will get thru this small, bump in the road. You have to come to the point where you understand that the M you have known is dead and gone. That can be a positive because it wasn't working. Now you can possibly reconnect with yourself and who BM really is and maybe with Beckie. She may think she is controlling the D and you, but YOU are in the drivers seat of YOUR life. No one steers that but you.

It's Friday and I hope you are going to enjoy your weekend.

YOU ROCK!