I have mainly working. My schedule during the week is usually pretty boring and routine. Take D to school shower go to work. Pick up D from after school program help with HW, make dinner read a book with her and then put her to sleep.
Its the same thing day in and day out. On the weekends she has piano and church.
Its like groundhog day.
I am always thinking though, always processing, always analyzing. It never stops. People say 'forgive yourself we all make mistakes' this is true and for the most part I don't blame myself all that much anymore, however ending a R of 10 yrs is a pretty big freaking mistake.
I am not wallowing I am simply stating.
The reason I have been quiet is like to post only when I have something to say or when I feel I can contribute some advice to others that might help. Based on my current backslides and gonig into 5 months of the same ol same ol I wonder how much of what I am doing is really meaning anything.
I don't want to sound like a hypocrite when I talk to others and tell them GAL, Detach, No Expectations when I feel like sometimes I am doing the same thing.
I appreciate your checking up on me it means a lot and I have a new update to post. I will get to it in a little bit.
