Not doing so great today. Now that I've signed the divorce papers it is really sinking in and hitting me harder than can be described.
And I think it's horrible - not at all comforting - to know that SO many other people over the years not just on these boards but every freakin' day everywhere are experiencing similar loss and pains in their relationships.
I really believed my wife when she said it was forever. I really trusted her to work with me through anything that came up.
I don't want to keep on going on about it and making myself feel even worse than I already do...
Don't want to continue feeling sad...
But go*damit I believed in her!!!
Well, it's just me and me, now.
Again.
"The pain isn't there to make you sad. The pain is there to make you more aware." - Osho
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
