JS - your post made me realize what I was about to do was a mistake. I've been cycling through fear, depression, and anger. JTBs pointed out that his is common. I sort of LIKED the anger I've been feeling actually - made me feel motivated and less helpless.
But you're right. Digging up old discussions and "replaying" them in the hope of getting it right this time isn't going to help my situation. Especially when W returns from her trip. And having an angry confrontation can easily make me seem out of control. I know, I know.
**But I'm very confused about what to do next.** I can 180 and project confidence and cool and reap those rewards - but at some point don't I have to have this conversation with my W?
The individual events, which W explains away, paint a picture of a EA. And the stress that causes me is the BIG obstacle between the man I am and the man I want to be. If I don't respond I feel like I am just accepting this OM.
I feel like I need to have this conversation without having it.....know what I mean?
I need to get the plan set in my mind because I don't think quickly or clearly enough in front of W to wing it.
