Hang in there Brian. I know how you feel. I was there just yesterday. Today is a better day, not great just better.
Strangely after talking to my L yesterday I realized I had taken the first step in directing this rollercoaster. Instead of reacting and responding to W's demands I was able to set a condition of my own protecting me.
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill