It's Time To Rock; Part I

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Well last night wasn’t a good start if going truly dark is my best course of action at this point. W started texting me during her lunch break last night, and I was quicker to respond than I have been, guess I was just kind of bored. Anyways, we ended up texting back and forth for about 30 minutes. All small talk, 90% about our D.

I guess I do still have hesitation on changing gears right now; I was able to get a coaching session for tomorrow night, so we will have a lot to discuss. I am sure it sounds stupid, but I kind of feel like I am getting nibbles. Since last week, her contact with me has changed a bit. Much longer messages, small things that do not concern our D, and just a different tone. She gets an hour for lunch; she spent half of that time with me, that means OM got at the most the other half. Again, just typing this sounds naïve, but it feels like something.

I know in my last coaching session the coach noted that 3 months is usually the absolute earliest feelings for OM may begin to change, I am at 2.5 months right now. I know that if I am to simply wait that out, we could easily be talking 6 months or more. The question I have, if I go dark, is there a possibility I speed that process up? That is what I have a hard time understanding.

For me personally, if I think about what I want, I don’t really mind the friend zone I am in. It is not tearing me up; I am in a pretty good spot most days anymore. I think that going dark would be harder on me, but it is tough to say.

I really do appreciate all of the advice; I guess I have always been one to take my time before making important decisions, that is why I am contemplating my direction so much.