H takes all the blame - why?

[angel61]

JOurnaling:

Nothing much today by way of interactions. H called me, I missed his call, I called back, he just chatted for 5 minutes.

At home he was fine, a little tired, slept early.

As for me, all I can say is that I welcome these times when I feel rested between bouts of anger, resentment, happiness, or whatever else may be thrown my way. I

All these trying so hard to be something is so tiring! Detaching is a supreme effort, trying not to talk is so darn frustrated, thinking of what to say is confusing, walking on eggs is stressful, being angry and hurt and resentful brings pain and tears, stopping the anger is virtually impossible, and trying not to care is like being asked to stop breathing.

I just want to be allowed to be myself for a bit....