Was just thinking about Country's comment to me when I went over the top on one of my posts to him. He said "Whoa! Better put away the crack pipe, Busting!"
That made me laugh out loud especially since I saw that he was right so I figured I'd take it as a learning opportunity here on my thread rather than cluttering up his.
After my wife and I got married a yogi said to me:
"Beyond breaking bad habits is maintaining a good one. And beyond that is living in a constant renewal that deals with all habits good and bad to be habitually non-habitual- and that is the best of love and marriage."
Looking at my communication habits, the way I interact with people sometimes, often impulsive and emotional rather present and effective...
Gotta get that smack crackin' monkey off my back!!!
Today's new mantra:
"With every breath, I am the possibility of being aligned with my own Highest Power."
Pure. Natural. Free.
Wahe Guru.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
Seriously, no offense taken. One of the best uses of this board is to let out the emotions we are feeling, rather than letting those emotions out in our real lives, creating much greater problems....
BITS
Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.
After my wife and I got married a yogi said to me:
"Beyond breaking bad habits is maintaining a good one. And beyond that is living in a constant renewal that deals with all habits good and bad to be habitually non-habitual- and that is the best of love and marriage."
Sounds pretty smart, for a bear at Jellystone Park...
Feeling sad right now. Was feeling angry earlier. Uncertain before that. Today I also felt playful confident, connected, loving, helpful, peaceful, productive, effective...
Honest, genuine, happy...
Happy with myself.
It's all good. It's all God.
With every breath I am the possibility of being aligned with my own highest power.
Sweet dreams DBers.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
M: 48, H: 42 Kids: 0 T: 20 yrs M: 16 yrs. (H's 1st, my 2nd) WAS/MLC: 12/7/09-I'm not the wife HE deserved Came home per L: 12/26/09, Left again: 2/6/10 Served: 10/21/10, D FINAL: 6/15/11
Hope you are feeling better today! Just wanted to stop by and check in!
YOU ROCK!!!
BITS
M: 48, H: 42 Kids: 0 T: 20 yrs M: 16 yrs. (H's 1st, my 2nd) WAS/MLC: 12/7/09-I'm not the wife HE deserved Came home per L: 12/26/09, Left again: 2/6/10 Served: 10/21/10, D FINAL: 6/15/11
Not doing so great today. Now that I've signed the divorce papers it is really sinking in and hitting me harder than can be described.
And I think it's horrible - not at all comforting - to know that SO many other people over the years not just on these boards but every freakin' day everywhere are experiencing similar loss and pains in their relationships.
I really believed my wife when she said it was forever. I really trusted her to work with me through anything that came up.
I don't want to keep on going on about it and making myself feel even worse than I already do...
Don't want to continue feeling sad...
But go*damit I believed in her!!!
Well, it's just me and me, now.
Again.
"The pain isn't there to make you sad. The pain is there to make you more aware." - Osho
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
